inglorious wanderer

She came to America in her 30's when her son who was born in Shanghai was barely two years old. Her daughter who was born in the US is a freshman at UC Berkeley. I met Ling today at the hair salon. She gave me a haircut. I like Ling Ming a lot. She is nice. I have actually been more comfortable with fellow Asians like Ling Ming than any other fellow Filipinos. The very first friend I made when I came to America was Tia. Justitia was plucked from Indonesia as a foreign bride. Just like I was. But there were never strings to be untangled with her. But Jakarta tied more invisible strings on the upbringing of Tia. I don't remember if she was born of the Islamic faith. She had a Latin justice for a name. I think she was born Christian. There was no mention of being born again.

Was watching the latest episode of Pan Am and my mind keeps wandering to what happened about nine hours ago. I couldn't email anyone what I was thinking. Pha Khin thoughts but this would relieve me in the absence of Imitrex. Blog the Pha Khin thoughts out! Acute Enteritis. Fall risk. OOB with assist. Bloody stool! I got a high heart rate: 130. I had Hope. I notified Hope. But I don't remember telling about the bathroom visit. That was the averted disaster haunting me now. Oh God, thank God for Hope.

Looking back ten years ago, I did not even dream of driving an automobile. I rode jeepneys. That's all I want to remember now. But other than remembering all the jeepneys I rode, comes other memories. All I could afford then was to ride jeepneys. There were no shows then. I was a single parent struggling to raise two daughters and living in a room of an apartment rented and occupied by my sister and family. Even if I was paying 90% of the rent, I felt I was at the mercy of my sister and her family because they were doing me a favor by letting my daughters and me occupy the room. I rode jeepneys most of my waking hours. I did not feel sorry for myself then for just being able to ride jeepneys. I had a job and I was estranged from the jerk that I married and he was not around take my salary to gamble or buy meth or liquor. I redeemed myself from the jerk on November 5, 2000. I met my 3n1 on December 23, 2002. Three in one would be father, lover and friend. The first ema...