Tenshi comes out. Beyond gay terms, Tenshi takes the place of Holy Shi Tzu, the happy monkey tree sack buddha from the cordilleras of my homeland who has gone ahead, like lost or left behind on the trails. Tenshi means messenger from heaven in Japanese. The icon is a representation of the monks who are called "tenshin" at the Yokoji Zen Mountain Center near Idyllwild. In Zen Buddhism terms, Tenshi comes out in search of the bull. "In the pasture of this world, I endlessly push aside the tall grasses in search of the bull. Following unnamed rivers, lost upon the interpenetrating path of distant mountains, my strengths failing me and my vitality exhausted, I cannot find the bull. I only hear the locusts chirping through the forests at night." The glorious Holy Shih Tzu started off as one of my "traveling gnomes", a corny mimicry of a plot in Amelie, the movie. The lowly happy monkey tree sack Buddha took the place of Pha Khin Phat wh...
Momentarily, that is! The brouhaha over Blackberry and Phone uploads and public lamentations drives me crazy. So here I am back, momentarily that is, uploading a picture of my Lourdes Hibiscus in bloom. Is it ironic that I name my plant after my deceased sister? The developments on my sister's case have gone complicated and here I am in my hiding place, away from Facebook and unable to hear my youngest sister crying for justice on her Facebook timeline. I find it pathetic for anyone fishing for condolences on social media. Be strong, Fe! Condolences, condolences and more condolences! Those condolences don't mean anything. Her Facebook friends just wanted to know what happened, how my sister died. My brother Jaime posted a video link. The remains of my sister covered in an orange cloth was being carried on a stretcher into a waiting van. I can almost hear my sister Fe bawling and crying for justice. It's numbing! It's nauseating!
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